Journal Entry 3.27.17

#SoulSisters Journal Entry 3.27.17

I have not shared space with the Soul sisters since last week. The last time I was with them I knew Unity was so close to inviting me into her space that I wanted to wait and be sure Ivy Schexnayder was here to capture it. Once we move past this point, there is no going back. These first touches are everything. A Wild horse NEVER forgets them and my Wild soul is in love with them.

Before I can type much more, I must update you that Ethereal has made it clear that she would like for me to honor her name bestowed on her in the wild, Omega. I fully respect that and though I Love the word Ethereal and how it represents their Ethereal Unity, I also recognize she is an individual as well. She says she is Omega and she knows herself better than I, so that is what I will call her 🙂

So, I have known I was reaching a point where it would really benefit my relationship with the #SoulSisters as a whole, to allow Unity the space to develop a deeper connection with me. She is SO ready and Omega is getting ready, but I knew that if Unity had the chance to move forward in the way she was asking to, it would provide the support and guidance Omega needed to #TrustMore as well. The fact is, though Omega is the first to be first in every situation they are in, it is Unity that is their ground and ultimate guide. Not by telling Omega what to do, nor even showing the way, but by being what Omega craves to feel, what we all crave to feel. That deep grounded connection to what it is that we truly are.

So we did something new. It was smooth and simple. Thanks to Omega’s high food drive, it was easy to slide her to the other side of the rail. Leaving simply Unity and I together, sharing space, just she and I, for the first time.

It went just as I knew it would but so much more. Unity welcomed my presence into hers and I was able to stroke the right side of her neck. Gradually working my way out further, from that safe entrance door we had created. I worked up to being able to touch her side, her back, her jaw and a bit on her left side too. She actually got really into it and started guiding me just where to touch her… that video is coming next 😉 It is hilarious and amazing all at the same time.

As you can see Omega was never worried in the least. It was just one rail between them and they were both very comfortable with the set up the entire time. Later this day, once they were back together, I was able to touch Unity again, even with Omega right at her side. Watching Omega process it all was fascinating. I am so Grateful Ivy is back to capture these unforgettable, yet unrepeatable moments. To be able to share this with you in such a visual way is something I have desired from the first Mustang I touched. And these two #SoulSisters could not be more perfect had I been able to hand pick every quality.

So much is happening so fast. Feeling so thankful for the ride. Even when I get tired, I still feel so very thankful.

from our light to yours Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

Side by Side

Tag #3736 & Tag #3737

#SoulSisters side by side in the wild, side by side through the chutes at BLM to get their tag numbers, and side by side here at Be LIFE Farm

I feel I have only just begun to hear the stories from others that feel a parallel in their lives to the bond between the #SoulSisters. I have known for quite some time that my purpose in adopting them was beyond the ‘norm’ and well beyond anything I had done before. For one thing, a ‘horse person’ does not typically intentionally pick out a horse that is so buddied up with another. That is called ‘buddy sour’ … not a Soul connection, right? But, I have known all along this was meant to be about much more than just training or gentling a wild horse.

These #SoulSisters, they are the bridge to the world. A world that is currently afraid to connect. A world that is currently afraid to trust. A world that is currently afraid to be anything, but afraid.

Through their never-ending trust in one another and together their ultimate trust in a world so full of reasons to fear, they will help us all learn to #TrustMore once again.

The fact is, it is a new world every second of every day. We all have the power to see any reality we choose to be. We all have a #SoulSister that has our back, even if we do not know who she is. We all have Ethereal Unity, even if we do not feel the least bit connected. We all have it and the secret to feeling what it is that is already our own is to #TrustMore, once again.

from our light to yours – Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

photo by Ivy Schexnayder (Ethereal is tag # 3737, Unity is tag #3736)

Reflections of the first two days sharing the arena with the #SoulSisters …

Reflections of the first two days sharing the arena with the #SoulSisters

So much has happened since I stepped over the arena rail just yesterday afternoon. There is security that rail offers, just like the horse trailer did.

There is an experience from the 17 Day #WildHorseRoadTrip I want to share to help explain. When we unloaded the #SoulSisters in NE at Know Your Horse stables, owned by Anna Flaugher Schaben, and went to reload the following day, I learned just how much they were leaning on the security of that rail. … When I stepped over the fence, with the simple intention of guiding them back to the trailer, they both became very fearful and scrambled to flee from me… bouncing into the railing as I did my best to get out of their space to relieve the pressure from them, fearful they would get hurt, or climb out! It was Anna (whom owns the facility) that had the brilliant idea to carry a panel in front of her to ease towards them in order to softly guide them back on, without intimidating them too much by our presence… and it worked SO well. They every so quietly stepped back up into their trailer and went to munching their soaked alfalfa. We even eased the door slowly shut, they had plenty of time to opt to leave, but they were perfectly content to stay on.

It was an enlightening experience. In one respect, it reminded me of the importance of PARTNERSHIP in this SoulSister venture, as in the importance of allowing others to share their talents and wisdom, that is critical for this venture I am certain … but the other thing it revealed to me was the true sensitivity of these ladies. It could be a bit deceiving seeing them trying to push their noses through to the feed bucket every time I fed them in the trailer. But it was clear that they were still very much wild horses and would need me to remember that about them as I stepped into their arena floor.

So, I reminded myself of this simple fact as I stepped into the arena with them for the first time yesterday afternoon. The first session is always intriguing to me with any new wild horse, much less two of them. I never know exactly what I will need to do. Will they be terrified of me and try to climb the walls to escape? Will they be oblivious to me and require me to make my presence seen in some way? (That one is rare, but it happens) Will they be fearful of me and move that fear into aggression to protect themselves? There really is no way to know until I step in. No plan. No step by step program. Just wild horses and little ‘ole me.

I did 3 short 10 minute sessions that afternoon. Always easing out of the pen, to offer the ultimate release, when they were on the brink of engaging. They simple fact is, with any wild horse in the beginning stages of relationship building – there is only one thing that they desire over all else. And that is for the odd looking 2 legged, with eyes set close together on their heads, like the predator that they are – to leave. Now, fortunately this stage passes rather quickly and soon my presence becomes a reward, but in the very early stages, my presence leaving the round pen is the thing they want most. So I am quick to give them that release, as soon as they begin to engage with me. It is the quickest way to move to the next stage, of them not only accepting, but desiring my presence.

All went well, but one very odd thing happened during our third session. At one point, when both ladies were standing still, side by side watching me. Ethereal looked back at Unity and tossed her ears back, requesting that Unity take a step back, which she did. And then she brought her attention onto me and flattened her ears and took a deliberate step straight at me! As quickly as it happened, she softened again and melted back beside Unity and it was over.

I did not react, in anyway. But I observed and thought it quite interesting.

The next morning I had an early session with them and things picked up pretty much where we left off. I do not ask them to move much, just some slow tracking when I need to direct their focus to ‘see’ me and lots lots lots of ambling back and forth in front of them. Preditors do not behave in soft rhythmical ways, so when I do anything in rhythmical repetition they take comfort and grow confidence in it. Hence the ambling back and forth. They only time I track them is if they no longer ‘see’ me and I track them a bit to remind them I am there. So they are not physically doing much of anything in our sessions, though much is happening.

The fascinating thing occurred after their confidence in my presence had grown for about 20 minutes. I had eased in rather close to them, only 7 or 8 feet away, which was the closest I had been at that point and I recall thinking, wow I am close. Just as I thought that Ethereal tossed her ears back at Unity, pushing her back a step and charged towards me hard! I tossed my hands up to create a bit of a block and she allowed it to stop her. It was fascinating to experience and totally different from any aggression I have felt from any wild horse before.

Aggression is always fear based, in some way shape or form, always. But there are all sorts of levels and types of fear. When I first started working with Magic as a wild horse, she was very fearful and aggressive and deeply disliked me for quite some time. Presently, my relationship with her feels amazing, but it took months. Her fear ran deep. I do not feel that from the SoulSisters. This aggression coming from Ethereal is totally different from any I have felt before and I feel clearly what it is. I felt it when in the arena with them, but it was confirmed when I recorded the show I co-host with Sara Willerson this morning called Messages From The Herd. Sara brilliantly guides the listener (and myself) through a horse inspired meditation and during that, it was crystal clear to me what was happening.

Ethereal was not protecting herself. She does not have that deep rooted fear that Magic came to our farm carrying. No, she is protecting something very different. She is protecting what it is that is carried between herself and Unity. She is protecting their connection, their peace, their unity. This Ethereal Unity has carried them through living in the wild, to being gathered and living with a large herd in holding at BLM in Oregon. It has carried them through all the unimaginable things they must have seen and heard in that trailer as they were hauled all the way across the nation. Their ties may not be seen, but they are strong and Ethereal is firm in her stand that those ties will not be broken.

I heard that message loud and clear. What I also heard was that it was Not that they did not desire me to become a part of their unity, but rather they desired and demanded that I do it in a way they can clearly understand. In a way that is noninvasive and a way that makes sense to the wild horse brains that their thoughts are filtered through. And I knew exactly what they meant.

When I went back in for the afternoon session I was careful to do a bit more tracking than before. Simple, slow tracking, as this builds confidence in them, that I am capable of guiding them in a safe way. I also did much much more ambling back and forth in front of them, and did it from a distance that was close enough that they saw me, but far enough that they were quick to settle into the rhythm.

Ethereal was much more accepting of me, but still remained very clear as to when I was getting a bit too close for comfort. Always she would push Unity back first, then toss a look at me, clearly to say, ok that is far enough for now. And I respected that space. Their relationship with one another is what fascinates me, nothing in me desires to split that up or change it in any way, I simply desire to move into it. To join them in the peaceful space that they already have, and they have been allowing me, slowly and steadily, to do just that.

As the light was getting low Ivy Schexnayder captured this image. You can see how Ethereal is reaching out, in a peaceful invite of sharing space more than we have ever before, and Unity stands grounded beside her.

Oh how I am loving this process. The lessons the #SoulSisters have to share are infinite.

Mary Miller Jordan

image by Ivy Schexnayder

Settling in…

Unity and Ethereal are settling in to their new home at Be Life Farm.  They are eating and drinking really well.  Yesterday, they had their first round pen interaction with Mary.  Watching Mary interact with the girls has been really fun.  Both mares are calm, but willing to show quickly any emotions they are feeling.

Since the goal is to work with them together, it creates an amazing and different dynamic from working with just one horse.

Preparing to Step Into the Magic

As I write this post, it is early afternoon on Friday, March 3rd. It is the day after we returned home from our 17 Day #WildHorseRoadTrip and I am sitting in the kitchen with the door wide open to Be LIFE Farm that we call home.

I am overflowing with Gratitude for the Ethereal Unity that is happening between so many already, all because of two #SoulSister wild horses who were determined to stay together. Who have drawn peace and serenity from one another as they traveled over 3000 miles across the entire country. Who are now resting, renewing one another, as they simply draw from one another’s presence, basking in the warm sun and gentle breeze that bathes this new home.

This afternoon I will finally be able to step over the fence, onto their side. Into their territory. In their herd. I honestly have no plan. I do not know what I will do to engage with them, perhaps I will do nothing? This is different from any wild horse I have gentled in the past, these two are two separate pieces of a beautiful whole and to separate them would create a ‘hole’ within that I do not wish to create. They are Magic together and I simply desire to join in their Magic. Not to split them and force them to look for me for support, but rather my desire is to be invited into the sacred space that they so beautifully share.

So I know the ‘What’ I desire, but the ‘How’?

No, I do not know that any more than I knew the ‘How’ that we would make this recent #WildHorseRoadTrip a reality. But one thing I am learning in life is, it is not the job of my human brain to attempt to figure out the ‘How’ … I could not if I tried and any ‘How’ that I came up with would not be nearly as brilliant as the ‘How’ that can be created by the Unseen.

So, I fully intend to approach this new chapter in this journey in the same way I approached this 17 Day Wild Horse Road Trip. I will set a clear intent of the ‘What’ I desire. Which is to be invited INto the magical Ethereal Unity these #SoulSisters share. And I will be open to the ‘How’ that is meant to move into form day by day, step by step, moment by moment.

Patiently Excited for the afternoon light to be just right so that Ivy Schexnayder can work her magic behind the lens of her camera, as I step over the fence rail.

~ from our light to yours, Mary Miller Jordan & the #SoulSisters

photo by Ivy Schexnayder