Journal Entry 4.2.17

 

#SoulSisters Journal Entry 4.2.17

Removing Omega’s Necktag!

I love how this deeply meaningful process of removing the necktag, on each of these very unique Soul Sisters, truly showcases how they each think, interact and process. Which is so beautifully different of course, but still the same.

One thing that is the same, is that I strive to read their needs. When they become a bit uneasy with what is happening, I do not rush to complete the task, but rather I do the opposite. I take a breath and create space for us to regroup. The way in which we regroup is very different for each horse, but the need to create the space for it, is the same.

If you recall from Unity’s tag removal video. It was all about energy flow and touch. Oh how her energy is intoxicating! There were moments when she stepped back and I simply mirrored that, walking forward to stay with her, to maintain the same relationship between her physical self and my own. Unity allows me to reassure her by scratches on the neck. I was excited to find a sweet spot under her mane that she LOVES to have scratched. When she became a bit uneasy, that rub under her mane helped her settle back ‘into’ me. And when the tag was fully removed and I drew away, Unity replied by filling the space up deeply and entirely with her presence. Freely flowing right back into mine. It was amazing, it was Unity. (here is the video link if you want to see –> https://www.facebook.com/iamherdmustangs/videos/1618688374827295/ )

Omega’s thinking process was quite different and therefore my way of telling her yes and creating space for her, was equally unique. In the very beginning of the video clip, you see her start to curl her head around to me. This was because she was a bit uneasy about what I was doing. I recognized that and I took the language she and I had created, to pause and just hold my hand still. This is familiar to her and she replied by touching my hand with her face. When she did, I said yes (in Omega’s case I said yes by the click and reward) After she received this confirmation from me that we were still in familiar territory, although I was doing something quite new, she shifted towards Grazing Mode and so I continued.

There are multiple other times I continued to do the same thing. Any moment she became a bit uneasy and shifted away from Grazing Mode I held my two hands out for her to move back into them. When I felt her face and neck on my hands, I clicked to say yes and rewarded and then continued taking the tag off.

You can see I did this multiple times. On one hand it could look like I was simply shoving food down her mouth to keep her distracted. ha! … Honestly, anything can and does look like anything to anyone. The fact is things will and do look drastically different depending on what lens you are viewing them through. When working with another Being, it is deeply beneficial to try to see through their lens, not your own. And this process is deeply beneficial for our own Self as well. Anytime we can get out from behind our own lens and get outside of our Self a bit, it invites a deeply enlightening experience. It invites new clarity and vast room for growth. To move out from behind our current lens is a necessity for new Unseen to move into new Seen.

When you think about how it must feel to Omega, to have this newfound control over a very fearful situation. A control that is safe for us both and fully in our highest good. A control that causes her to relax and softly touch my hand in order to receive a yes and reward from me. I think when you step out from behind your own lens enough to see it a bit through her eyes, it starts to make sense. And most importantly, it surely makes sense to her. And that was her request ‘Make it make sense.”

That is truly my intent with Omega, to get out from behind my own lens so that I can see through hers. It is the only way to become the herd-mate she needs and desires.

They think I am most pleased, with both Omega and Unity, that they both allowed me to help navigate us ‘through’ the process of the tag removal. They both needed different communications styles, but they both were fully engaged and fully willing to create space With me to process things when it became uncomfortable.

It is seemingly such a simple task, to just untie a neck tag, but it means so much to me. It is so representative of moving into something brand new. A new kind of wild freedom. Not a reintroduction of their former lives. Their wild lives on the South Steen mountain could never be recreated under the warm Carolina sun that basks over our Be LIFE Farm. But it is a whole new kind of freedom, and it is wild and amazing in its own way. A freedom where they have 2 legged herd mates, as well as other mustangs that adore them all and make it a personal mission to keep them safe and comfortable and happy. A freedom where their wild Souls will guide the hearts and lives of countless others, through our non profit I AM HERD, a place where horses help humans to ‘hear their own hearts’ – Something a wild mustang knows how to do oh so very well.

A wild freedom where their unique ‘I Am’ is completely honored and respected and where the ‘Herd’ creates an image that is reflected back by this beautiful world in infinite ways.

I am deeply honored to share this path with these wild Mustangs, they continue to be my biggest mentors.

from our light to yours, Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

video by Ivy Schexnayder

Omega ~ Soft Connection

Omega ~ Soft Connection

My open hand over her face means to drop her head to the point her eyes drop below my hand. I adore this image Ivy Schexnayder captured of the emotion in motion.

The energy, mind and body are so connected, if we can guide just one – the others will mirror.

For Omega to willingly choose to physically drop her head in ‘body’ causes her mind and energy to mirror with softness and relaxation.

Mary Miller Jordan

Journal Entry 4.1.17

 

#SoulSisters Journal Entry 4.1.17

Oh I love this clip! This was just before I took Omega’s tag off and it was the last thing we did in ‘prep’ for that moment.

As I explained earlier, I went through a series of layers to help empower Omega’s confidence with my presence, with the intent of a ‘soft connection’. I used +R (Positive Reinforcement) for much of this, as it really speaks to Omega.

Some of the layers were a shift in Omega’s energy towards Grazing Mode, then Omega touching one of my hands with her face, then her allowing me to touch her face with one hand and then … this …

TWO hands was a new step and quite scary at first for Omega, so I stepped back to her touching my hands, and saying ‘yes’ to that … then progressed back up to touching her face.

(to say ‘yes’ I cluck/click to tag the moment I want to say Yes to and follow with food reward)

I so love how you can see her processing this. You see her shy away a bit at the presence of both of my hands, then you see her process and try to lean into me a bit. I knew she had the confidence within and understanding to do more, to give a more deliberate shift into my hands and so I waited. And she did! You can see her really ease over, letting her face touch both of my hands at the same time! I of course said yes to that!!!

Another benefit for Omega to this type of interaction is it keeps her jaw moving. This simple physical movement in body is one that will help move stored up tension in the horse and help them release. It is why some horses are ‘nervous grazers’ – they go crazy wanting grass when they get nervous. The process of chewing/grazing actually calms them down! So the fact that this keeps her chewing is an added benefit as well 🙂

Next video up is Omega’s tag removal! Similar to Unity’s, but of course oh.so.different.

from our light to yours Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

video by Ivy Schexnayder

droplets of the same ocean

I reach out to them as if they are the same, but even my intent within each hand must be unique to connect with two deeply unique #SoulSisters

Omega is the white frothy cap on the wave as it rushes to the shore. Excitedly, anxiously ready to pound itself into the sand and then quickly rush back out to sea.

Unity is the deep dark water that runs so far below the surface, that man cannot even reach the depths of its flow. Waters moving silently among the vast unknown.

Both droplets of the same ocean. The same droplet of water that moves through Unity in the vast depths of the deepest seas, that same droplet travels miles up up up to meet Omega, where it is carried on an adventurous wild ride along the tippy tops of the white water waves and you can almost hear it giggle as it flails itself onto the hot beach sand. Shaping every grain and every shell and every creature, as it wildly and freely moves across.

Shaping simply by its own wild presence. Shaping for but a fleeting moment before it rushes back out to sea, to dive into the depths of the ocean and immerse in Unity once again.

These Wild #SoulSisters are simply vessels, deeply amazing unique vessels for the same droplet of water to shape the sands of this earth by its simple wild presence.

I am honored to share a droplet with them and with you.

from our light to yours Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

image by Ivy Schexnayder

Journal Entry 3.31.17

#SoulSisters Journal Entry 3.31.17

Connecting with Omega is entirely different than connecting with Unity, but I find that I am loving it just the same, for different reasons.

Omega’s thoughts move FAST, even faster than her feet. I am still amazed at how she has shifted in such a short window of time. In this clip you can see the +R (Positive Reinforcement) being used again. This speaks so clearly to her, because of the simplicity of it and the control it gives her.

In this clip I guide her on the circle and once she offers a nice soft shape to the circle I ‘cluck/click’ to cue her that was correct. I follow with a taste of the Alfalfa from the scoop. This simple task is so empowering to her. It offers her a taste of control, but in a very healthy way. In her eyes, she has trained ME to offer her a gift in exchange for this nice soft circle around me. And she is right, she has! I fully intend to allow her to train me to offer her a gift in exchange for many other brilliant feats as well, just like what you see next in the video.

After her reward for the circle, I invite her to soften into my hand. This is a step by step process and is a bit like a math class in college, there are prerequisites that must be completed first. Actually it all has important layers, or steps. Each fundamental to the next and there is a clear intention that runs throughout it all.

The Intent is to create a soft connection between us. Most of the footage that I have of Omega to date shows her pinning her ears at me and displaying all sorts of signs of dis-test in my general direction. There have been moments of softness, but most of the time there is uncomfortable discontent hanging in the air, from her to me. Having Unity help bridge the gap and show Omega that I am ok was helpful and very interesting, but it was not enough to change Omega’s inner viewpoint. So my Intent to create a soft connection between us is important to recognize and OWN.

Intent is everything. The ‘How’ shows up from the Intent. It is very easy to get hung up in the details of the ‘How’ that we have decided on. This ‘How’ may have initially been based on a clear Intent, but if we lose site of the Intent, the How can quickly take over and we find over-selves fixated and funnel focused and often times digging a hole deep into the How – when perhaps the How no longer serves the Intent.

So, remembering Intent is priority. How is secondary and How will undeniably fluctuate. We must be ready to roll with the How and allow it to do its job, which is to carry us to the Intent. But we deeply limit the power of the How, when we become fixated on what we think it looks like.

Intent – Soft Connection

How – First empower Omega by allowing her to control my cluck by circling me. Once she is showing that beautifully shaped circle, cluck and reward. Once she has done this a time or two she begins to shift to a slightly more grounded state. It is not from being tired, because she is hardly moving around me at all. Just once or twice, but it is in the control and understanding of her situation that moves her towards a place of more Grazing Mode energy.

Once I see this shift towards Grazing Mode, I can cluck and reward it too. I can actually cluck to say “YES Omega” to mark the very moment I see her begin to shift energy from nervous, chaotic energy to energy that is Grazing Mode. And I did that quite a bit. Even standing beside her, when I stood closely at her side and held my hand out, it made her very nervous. I would wait until she softened towards Grazing Mode, just a bit, and cluck to say Yes to that, then reward. So, second is rewarding the shift towards Grazing Mode energy and I can do that within anything she is doing. The circling at movement or standing beside me, or anything else. The key is that whatever she is FEELING/DOING the split second I cluck – that is what she will register as YES. And I can only reward ONE FEELING/DOING at a time. <– This is very important, I can layer things, but can only say Yes to ONE thing at a time.

Invite her to touch my hand. Once, she was consistently moving towards Grazing Mode, I added a new layer by putting my hand by her face and inviting her to move her face into my hand. It was important that I did not touch her at this point, but rather allow her to touch me. This gives her the control and thus gives her comfort.

Something else I want to mention, creating a ‘doorway’ to touch a horse the first time on the FACE is not something every horse desires. Unity did not, her first open doorway was to her neck, not her face. Imagine going up to a friend and petting them on the face to say hello. Not that great of a feeling is it??? Well, imagine having your eyes so far apart that you cannot even see that hand coming to you – plus you are a wild horse and are in preservation mode. I mean, it just makes sense that to force a horse to be touched on the face is pretty intrusive. Unless that is where they choose for their doorway to be. And that was the door Omega picked. Her face. I surely did not want to say no to her doorway, because any doorway that results in a soft connection is ok with me, but I did want to be extra careful in how I opened it up. It was the only way for it to open up. So, allowing her to touch my hand with her face was deeply empowering for her and built her confidence greatly.

Touching her face with my hand. I move my hand to her face to make contact. This is harder than her touching me, and it came AFTER all the above. Also, if at any time I lost where we were at, I would go back to a previous layer. Sometimes all the way back to letting her circle me and saying Yes to the soft circle. Many times going back to rewarding the direction of energy towards Grazing Mode. So, my How kept changing depending on what she needed. … But when she was ready for this step, I would touch her face with my hand and say Yes with the cluck when I made soft contact.

There are so many layers to this, so much more than I can describe in one post or in even a couple of video clips. But it has progressed so very well. The possibilities of all the things Omega can do to get me to say Yes are limitless!

There are no limits, only the imagined ones.

from our light to yours Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

video by Ivy Schexnayder

Journal Entry 3.30.17

 

#SoulSisters Journal Entry 3.30.17

I knew it was time. Time to give Omega and myself some space for one on one connection. Just like Unity and I had benefited from. So, I eased Unity into the side pen and allowed Omega to stay in the large round pen. They were both very relaxed with the set up. Again, they shared a rail and were never out of sight from one another, or even very far apart. It is so important to me that I honor their connection. It has not felt right before now to even put one rail between them, but as comfortable as they are in this set-up and the fact that they both desire to connect with me in very unique ways, well it was more than enough for this to feel right now.

Omega is still afraid. I am the vast unknown and what is unknown is feared. By wild horses and wild humans. The unknown is scary and scarier still if you do not feel grounded in the Unseen peace that is always available, but easy to forget. That has been Omega. Quick to fly away from her fear, and even quicker to attack it. But to grow roots and allow that fear to penetrate her space? Oh no, she wants none of that. She is determined to remain in a place where she understands the world. Where things make sense to her. And I am not of this world and I do not make much sense to her either.

‘You must make it make sense.’ I have heard this silent request from every fearful wild horse I have met and many fearful wild people too. When living in a place of fear, things making ‘sense’ becomes even more important than ever. The thing is, when things start to ‘make sense’ you begin to take that unknown, thus fear factor away. I knew that Omega was going to require a unique way of communication in order to help her make sense of me. You see Unity is making sense of me clearly, but Unity is not Omega and Omega is not Unity. I needed to think of a way to help me make sense to Omega’s unique and fascinating brain.

As with anyone that feels some underlying fear, Omega loves control. She loves to be able to control her environment, her world, her peers. She wants to call the shots, because when she does and when the world responds, for a moment she feels stronger. For that moment, she feels in control of the Unknown that brings such fear. So, if I could just start to give her some control of her world, then maybe, just maybe that control would give her the confidence to allow herself to see into my Unseen, my Unknown, into the fear that she sees in me. And I know if she simply will ‘look’ at it. The fear will disappear, because that is what fear does – when we face it.

During this first session with just Omega and I, she gave me many ideas of brilliant things she can do to start to ‘control’ her environment in her mind. Now, this is a tricky concept … I must be careful what type of control I give her. For example, to give her the control to boldly charge me with her ears pinned and try to push me out of her space would not be a beneficial type of control for the future of our relationship. I must select behaviors that are in the highest good for our relationship together. A horse and human herd has unique dynamics, as much as I like to pretend I am a wild horse, I am not. It would be no big deal for Omega and a wild horse to charge one another, and strike and bite and ekk and whatever. … and that is exactly what they would do. But I would likely get the short end of that stick and it would surely not result in a relationship that resembled two wild horse friends. So, I must be smart as I guide Omega to uncover the behaviors that she can control.

In this video you can see the beginning of one of those behaviors. She offered this small circle on her own, she is far away from the arena rail and circling me with shape and softness. This is so much more than ‘free lounging’ or whatever it might appear to be. This was a huge pivotal moment for our relationship. As I recognized her offering something that was already amazing, but would progress into REALLY amazing, and it was in the highest good of our herd relationship together (Meaning she is not trying to flatten me) … as I recognized that, a light bulb went off and I got REALLY excited.

There are A LOT of possibilities with this concept. The concept to give her the control of choosing behaviors that are not only good for our relationship, but amazing to watch and have infinite room for growth. It may or may not seem like this was an ‘ah ha’ moment from the video – but it surely was!

And SO much has happened, later this very day – after this concept was really born.

Something to point out is, I have already introduced positive reinforcement training with her. I am speaking about today as if it were our first session, but of course, as you know, it is far from it. Omega has had quite a while to really, deeply understand that when I ‘cluck’ it means that whatever she was doing was right and she will be rewarded with TC Alfalfa. Her food drive is like none-other, so it has really progressed quickly. So I have a great way to simply tell her ‘Yes’ and for her to understand it.

The videos that will come over the next few days will really explain much more how this is working, but it is deeply intriguing to me to see Omega transform the way she is.

‘It must make sense.’

‘Let her have some control.’

These two concepts are working deeply within me now and the results have already astounded me. I cannot wait to share more, but there is so much depth to it, I feel I must explain it one step at the time.

from our light to yours Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

Side by Side

Tag #3736 & Tag #3737

#SoulSisters side by side in the wild, side by side through the chutes at BLM to get their tag numbers, and side by side here at Be LIFE Farm

I feel I have only just begun to hear the stories from others that feel a parallel in their lives to the bond between the #SoulSisters. I have known for quite some time that my purpose in adopting them was beyond the ‘norm’ and well beyond anything I had done before. For one thing, a ‘horse person’ does not typically intentionally pick out a horse that is so buddied up with another. That is called ‘buddy sour’ … not a Soul connection, right? But, I have known all along this was meant to be about much more than just training or gentling a wild horse.

These #SoulSisters, they are the bridge to the world. A world that is currently afraid to connect. A world that is currently afraid to trust. A world that is currently afraid to be anything, but afraid.

Through their never-ending trust in one another and together their ultimate trust in a world so full of reasons to fear, they will help us all learn to #TrustMore once again.

The fact is, it is a new world every second of every day. We all have the power to see any reality we choose to be. We all have a #SoulSister that has our back, even if we do not know who she is. We all have Ethereal Unity, even if we do not feel the least bit connected. We all have it and the secret to feeling what it is that is already our own is to #TrustMore, once again.

from our light to yours – Mary Miller Jordan and the #SoulSisters

photo by Ivy Schexnayder (Ethereal is tag # 3737, Unity is tag #3736)

Reflections of the first two days sharing the arena with the #SoulSisters …

Reflections of the first two days sharing the arena with the #SoulSisters

So much has happened since I stepped over the arena rail just yesterday afternoon. There is security that rail offers, just like the horse trailer did.

There is an experience from the 17 Day #WildHorseRoadTrip I want to share to help explain. When we unloaded the #SoulSisters in NE at Know Your Horse stables, owned by Anna Flaugher Schaben, and went to reload the following day, I learned just how much they were leaning on the security of that rail. … When I stepped over the fence, with the simple intention of guiding them back to the trailer, they both became very fearful and scrambled to flee from me… bouncing into the railing as I did my best to get out of their space to relieve the pressure from them, fearful they would get hurt, or climb out! It was Anna (whom owns the facility) that had the brilliant idea to carry a panel in front of her to ease towards them in order to softly guide them back on, without intimidating them too much by our presence… and it worked SO well. They every so quietly stepped back up into their trailer and went to munching their soaked alfalfa. We even eased the door slowly shut, they had plenty of time to opt to leave, but they were perfectly content to stay on.

It was an enlightening experience. In one respect, it reminded me of the importance of PARTNERSHIP in this SoulSister venture, as in the importance of allowing others to share their talents and wisdom, that is critical for this venture I am certain … but the other thing it revealed to me was the true sensitivity of these ladies. It could be a bit deceiving seeing them trying to push their noses through to the feed bucket every time I fed them in the trailer. But it was clear that they were still very much wild horses and would need me to remember that about them as I stepped into their arena floor.

So, I reminded myself of this simple fact as I stepped into the arena with them for the first time yesterday afternoon. The first session is always intriguing to me with any new wild horse, much less two of them. I never know exactly what I will need to do. Will they be terrified of me and try to climb the walls to escape? Will they be oblivious to me and require me to make my presence seen in some way? (That one is rare, but it happens) Will they be fearful of me and move that fear into aggression to protect themselves? There really is no way to know until I step in. No plan. No step by step program. Just wild horses and little ‘ole me.

I did 3 short 10 minute sessions that afternoon. Always easing out of the pen, to offer the ultimate release, when they were on the brink of engaging. They simple fact is, with any wild horse in the beginning stages of relationship building – there is only one thing that they desire over all else. And that is for the odd looking 2 legged, with eyes set close together on their heads, like the predator that they are – to leave. Now, fortunately this stage passes rather quickly and soon my presence becomes a reward, but in the very early stages, my presence leaving the round pen is the thing they want most. So I am quick to give them that release, as soon as they begin to engage with me. It is the quickest way to move to the next stage, of them not only accepting, but desiring my presence.

All went well, but one very odd thing happened during our third session. At one point, when both ladies were standing still, side by side watching me. Ethereal looked back at Unity and tossed her ears back, requesting that Unity take a step back, which she did. And then she brought her attention onto me and flattened her ears and took a deliberate step straight at me! As quickly as it happened, she softened again and melted back beside Unity and it was over.

I did not react, in anyway. But I observed and thought it quite interesting.

The next morning I had an early session with them and things picked up pretty much where we left off. I do not ask them to move much, just some slow tracking when I need to direct their focus to ‘see’ me and lots lots lots of ambling back and forth in front of them. Preditors do not behave in soft rhythmical ways, so when I do anything in rhythmical repetition they take comfort and grow confidence in it. Hence the ambling back and forth. They only time I track them is if they no longer ‘see’ me and I track them a bit to remind them I am there. So they are not physically doing much of anything in our sessions, though much is happening.

The fascinating thing occurred after their confidence in my presence had grown for about 20 minutes. I had eased in rather close to them, only 7 or 8 feet away, which was the closest I had been at that point and I recall thinking, wow I am close. Just as I thought that Ethereal tossed her ears back at Unity, pushing her back a step and charged towards me hard! I tossed my hands up to create a bit of a block and she allowed it to stop her. It was fascinating to experience and totally different from any aggression I have felt from any wild horse before.

Aggression is always fear based, in some way shape or form, always. But there are all sorts of levels and types of fear. When I first started working with Magic as a wild horse, she was very fearful and aggressive and deeply disliked me for quite some time. Presently, my relationship with her feels amazing, but it took months. Her fear ran deep. I do not feel that from the SoulSisters. This aggression coming from Ethereal is totally different from any I have felt before and I feel clearly what it is. I felt it when in the arena with them, but it was confirmed when I recorded the show I co-host with Sara Willerson this morning called Messages From The Herd. Sara brilliantly guides the listener (and myself) through a horse inspired meditation and during that, it was crystal clear to me what was happening.

Ethereal was not protecting herself. She does not have that deep rooted fear that Magic came to our farm carrying. No, she is protecting something very different. She is protecting what it is that is carried between herself and Unity. She is protecting their connection, their peace, their unity. This Ethereal Unity has carried them through living in the wild, to being gathered and living with a large herd in holding at BLM in Oregon. It has carried them through all the unimaginable things they must have seen and heard in that trailer as they were hauled all the way across the nation. Their ties may not be seen, but they are strong and Ethereal is firm in her stand that those ties will not be broken.

I heard that message loud and clear. What I also heard was that it was Not that they did not desire me to become a part of their unity, but rather they desired and demanded that I do it in a way they can clearly understand. In a way that is noninvasive and a way that makes sense to the wild horse brains that their thoughts are filtered through. And I knew exactly what they meant.

When I went back in for the afternoon session I was careful to do a bit more tracking than before. Simple, slow tracking, as this builds confidence in them, that I am capable of guiding them in a safe way. I also did much much more ambling back and forth in front of them, and did it from a distance that was close enough that they saw me, but far enough that they were quick to settle into the rhythm.

Ethereal was much more accepting of me, but still remained very clear as to when I was getting a bit too close for comfort. Always she would push Unity back first, then toss a look at me, clearly to say, ok that is far enough for now. And I respected that space. Their relationship with one another is what fascinates me, nothing in me desires to split that up or change it in any way, I simply desire to move into it. To join them in the peaceful space that they already have, and they have been allowing me, slowly and steadily, to do just that.

As the light was getting low Ivy Schexnayder captured this image. You can see how Ethereal is reaching out, in a peaceful invite of sharing space more than we have ever before, and Unity stands grounded beside her.

Oh how I am loving this process. The lessons the #SoulSisters have to share are infinite.

Mary Miller Jordan

image by Ivy Schexnayder